lessons learned

what you send out, comes back,

what you give, you get,

what you see in others, exists in you,

what you sow, you reap,

it always get to you,

so give goodness.

the wait

sometimes it does, sometimes something better does. i dont know for sure but what i know is that patience is always rewarded.

do good, feels good

wishing a happy eid al adha to all muslims celebrating in malaysia and abroad.

everyday is your day

shes warm, loving and supportive. with her help, i feel like i can tackle the world. i can be anybody i want to be because she is behind me. she gives me confidence and a kick in the butt when i need it. as long as shes alive, i have a place to go home when the world gets a little tough. shes mother. theres no one on earth who cares for me like she does. no one.

happy mothers day, ummi. maaf, adik jauh dari sempurna.

untitled

i just want to talk to her, all the time. and i dont know what to do about that.

lone words of wisdom

its hard to successfully filter the fulfillment of materialistic needs from happiness and contentment, but its a necessary priority if one desires satisfaction to be present even when earthly goods are not.

just one of those days i guess

do you ever have one of those days when it feels like lifes over? and theres kind of no way for you to move forward?

i dont know how people survive life. you deserve medals all of you !!

double minded

sometimes i feel like wanting someone 

to hold me as i cry or laugh with me.

but most times i am contented 

and feel like i could be single forever.

you say

you say that we are friends but i dont see it. you say i can trust you but i dont believe it. you said you will never leave me then where are you now. it amazing how easily you say these things but how easily you forget what you meant when you spoke them. youve left me so confused and so lost. thinking for a second just a second i found someone who actually understood but i guess my heart was so busy thinking that you were that person. that i ignored the signals my brain was giving me to tell me you werent.

work it

it never fails. you wonder why i cant talk to you? im sick and tired of you telling me you want to be with me, and then always flirting with other boys, or even worse, go out with other boy behind my back when i actually sick at home. still remember? i know you cant change, i know you wont. ive accepted that long ago. so every time you tell me you love me, i know its a fucking lie. which only makes me more pissed off. that was your problem with our relationship all along. you said i talked rubish to you? lol you treat me like a rubish already, i was right, i mean it, and now everything i said already lost because many reason. and you, you text me you miss me and same time you talk shit about me on public. what a motive?? hei hello come on, you didnt even care pun. because all you care about is yourself. you wanted me to be your boyfriend again? be your boyfriend again?? are you serious??? you cant even prove that you can change, youve had a million chances, and fucked up every single one. lets face it, the breakup, your choice, and more lies, i still gave you chances to prove yourself, atleast for our relation. but you?

not that it should really matter to anyone

i really dont care about your hair, what music you listen, the clothes you wear, the things you decide or not decide to eat, etc.
what matters is your character you as a person, you as a whole package, some people may have the nicest hair nicest eye or whatever, but who are they inside? they might be the loneliest soul, or the most conceited and conniving bastard.
this is why i dont like leaving people comments about how hot they are, unless i really know them and can joke around like that.

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first post so lets start it good

hello
my name is shafiqq, shafiqq sani.

call me Ben/Bayu/Shafiq or whatever you want.

1990s.

i have a very small group of real good friends.

i absolutely love touring and nothing make happier.

follow me on twitter @shafiqqsani_

im straight forward, honest and upfront.

im very confident.

im not a very happy person.

im too fucking emotional.
i have shitty mood swings.

and get frustrated really easily.

i enjoy meeting new people.

but i cant stand clingy and obsessive girls.

ive learned to love imperfections.

i hate the cold weather.

i like to sleep real late.

im very sarcastic and i think its funny.

i laugh at my own jokes.

if you dont like what ive list then do not talk to me.

thank you.