you say

you say that we are friends but i dont see it. you say i can trust you but i dont believe it. you said you will never leave me then where are you now. it amazing how easily you say these things but how easily you forget what you meant when you spoke them. youve left me so confused and so lost. thinking for a second just a second i found someone who actually understood but i guess my heart was so busy thinking that you were that person. that i ignored the signals my brain was giving me to tell me you werent.

work it

it never fails. you wonder why i cant talk to you? im sick and tired of you telling me you want to be with me, and then always flirting with other boys, or even worse, go out with other boy behind my back when i actually sick at home. still remember? i know you cant change, i know you wont. ive accepted that long ago. so every time you tell me you love me, i know its a fucking lie. which only makes me more pissed off. that was your problem with our relationship all along. you said i talked rubish to you? lol you treat me like a rubish already, i was right, i mean it, and now everything i said already lost because many reason. and you, you text me you miss me and same time you talk shit about me on public. what a motive?? hei hello come on, you didnt even care pun. because all you care about is yourself. you wanted me to be your boyfriend again? be your boyfriend again?? are you serious??? you cant even prove that you can change, youve had a million chances, and fucked up every single one. lets face it, the breakup, your choice, and more lies, i still gave you chances to prove yourself, atleast for our relation. but you?

not that it should really matter to anyone

i really dont care about your hair, what music you listen, the clothes you wear, the things you decide or not decide to eat, etc.
what matters is your character you as a person, you as a whole package, some people may have the nicest hair nicest eye or whatever, but who are they inside? they might be the loneliest soul, or the most conceited and conniving bastard.
this is why i dont like leaving people comments about how hot they are, unless i really know them and can joke around like that.

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first post so lets start it good

hello
my name is shafiqq, shafiqq sani.

call me Ben/Bayu/Shafiq or whatever you want.

1990s.

i have a very small group of real good friends.

i absolutely love touring and nothing make happier.

follow me on twitter @shafiqqsani_

im straight forward, honest and upfront.

im very confident.

im not a very happy person.

im too fucking emotional.
i have shitty mood swings.

and get frustrated really easily.

i enjoy meeting new people.

but i cant stand clingy and obsessive girls.

ive learned to love imperfections.

i hate the cold weather.

i like to sleep real late.

im very sarcastic and i think its funny.

i laugh at my own jokes.

if you dont like what ive list then do not talk to me.

thank you.